scared.

Maybe it's better if I don't have any friends. It is probably safer that way.

Right now I am scared. I am scared of losing friends. I am scared of losing the people I trust. I am scared of losing myself. I don't know why I get scared, but I do. I get really scared.

When I get scared, I walk away from everyone. I terminate friendships. I hide from people. I hide from my family.

I don't want to be scared anymore.