Human Contradiction.

I have no self confidence,

yet I have a massive ego

I want to turn my life around,

yet I want to die

I want people to think I have no weakness

yet all I want to do is cry

I want to be the best at everything,

yet I don't want to try

I want to stop hurting myself

but that's all I seem to do

I don't want people seeing my scars

yet I want them to know I'm scared

When I wake up, I want to be happy,

But I don't want to wake up anymore.

I am the human contradiction.

                                                       -G.S.

Please note, this is not my work, it just seems very relevant to me.