I have no self confidence,
yet I have a massive ego
I want to turn my life around,
yet I want to die
I want people to think I have no weakness
yet all I want to do is cry
I want to be the best at everything,
yet I don't want to try
I want to stop hurting myself
but that's all I seem to do
I don't want people seeing my scars
yet I want them to know I'm scared
When I wake up, I want to be happy,
But I don't want to wake up anymore.
I am the human contradiction.
Please note, this is not my work, it just seems very relevant to me.