My brother moved out last Tuesday and I am still having withdrawals. I miss him. Connor was my best friend, he was always there for me, he always knew what to say.
It's different being the oldest at home. I am not sure i like it yet. I feel overwhelmed. I want to be as good of an older sibling as Connor was when he was at home. I want my brothers to look up to me.
But, at the same time it feels good to have Connor out of the house. I don't feel so compared to him. He won't be at my school next year and I won't constantly get 'this is meghan, she's connor's younger sister' comments.
But, I miss him. Especially today.
I love you Connor.